I Can, I Can, I Can

I can climb to the top of a rock wall

and a bouldering wall

and a mountain.

I can put everything in a suitcase

(including my diabetes supplies)

and move to France for a year.

Or Amsterdam.

Or back home, to Virginia.

I can write poems.

I can write about diabetes and publish it.

I can write about travel and publish it,

or diabetes and travel and publish it.

I can stop eating gluten if it makes me feel better,

or I can eat all the gluten and try all of the street food,

and I can enjoy it.

I can try to cook, and I can forgive myself when it doesn’t go well.

I can wear orange and go to the world’s biggest street party

and wear black and go the beaches of the south of France.

I can graduate from college.

I can meet my favorite band, and discuss diabetes.

I can go 2 months without my Dexcom, although I’d really rather not ever again.

I can find humor in a 15 hour bus ride through England.

I can find humor in this disease, sometimes.

Other times, I can–I must–admit how fucking terrifying and ridiculous it is.

 

But I can always see, feel, live a full life beyond my chronic illness.

I can take a deep breath and listen to the old brag of my heart:

I can, I can, I can.

(The last line was tweaked from a quote by Sylvia Plath in The Bell Jar!) 

 

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18 Comments

  1. Mike Hoskins (@MHoskins2179) May 11, 2015 / 11:19 am

    This is great — love the list. And so much on point that we can do anything we want, choosing to make smart or adventurous decisions or safer ones depending on life and the mood. And no matter what, D isn’t going to limit us from achieving whatever we want. I can’t even imagine the incredible memories you’ll have for the rest of your life from traveling and living overseas. Pretty darn awesome. Thanks for sharing all of this!

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 11, 2015 / 11:24 am

      Thank you, Mike!!! 🙂

  2. Karen May 11, 2015 / 12:29 pm

    And you can write an absolutely beautiful post. (Although we definitely all knew that already.)

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 11, 2015 / 2:27 pm

      Awww thanks, Karen! 🙂

  3. Liz W May 11, 2015 / 1:11 pm

    I love your list! Proof that diabetes will not stop us!

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 11, 2015 / 2:26 pm

      Thank you, Liz 🙂

  4. Laddie May 11, 2015 / 2:18 pm

    Lovely post and you are an inspiration with your travels and “can do” attitude.

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 11, 2015 / 2:27 pm

      Thanks, Laddie!

  5. Kelley May 11, 2015 / 6:54 pm

    Love your list, Sarah! Great post 🙂

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 11, 2015 / 7:01 pm

      Thanks, Kelley 🙂

  6. type1diabeater May 11, 2015 / 8:37 pm

    I love this, and your blog too! Your domain name is completely up my street! (I’m a barista and a coffee is the first thing I have when I wake up…after testing my blood sugar of course!) Lovely appearance too.

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 12, 2015 / 9:59 am

      Thank you! I Coffee and insulin are definitely the two things I can’t live without. I knew I wasn’t alone!

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 12, 2015 / 9:59 am

      Thank you! 🙂

  7. carmygee May 12, 2015 / 2:22 am

    Thanks for the inspiration.

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 12, 2015 / 9:59 am

      Thank you for reading it! 🙂

    • Sarah V. Sarah V. May 12, 2015 / 10:00 am

      Thanks so much! 🙂

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