People always joke on my ability to throw a relevant quote into any conversation (but I know they actually love it.) I have a million quotes buzzing through my brain all the time. Sometimes I think I might actually think in quotes instead of forming my own sentences. I have pages and pages of Word documents saved of quotes I love, and binders of quotes I’ve printed out.
Okay, yes, maybe I’m a weirdo. But really I just love words a lot. Usually I’ll stumble across a quote that is really relevant at the moment, obsess over it for a day or a week or maybe a month, and then I’ll move on. This is the one I’m currently in love with:
Will you seek afar off? you surely come back at last,
In things best known to you finding the best, or as good as the best,
In folks nearest to you finding the sweetest, strongest, lovingest,
Happiness, knowledge, not in another place but this place, not for
another hour but this hour
– Walt Whitman, from “A Song of Occupations“
All hail Walt Whitman.
This is the reminder I needed right now, amongst the anxious in-betweens that my life seems to hang in right now (between college & career, Amsterdam & America, moving out of my little home on Clay St. & onto an air mattress at my (amazing, generous, life-saver) friend’s house for a month.) It’s a reminder to stay in this moment while I have it.
Which is HARD. It really is, in our fast-paced culture and in my fast-paced mind. I’m a dreamer, I like to think about the future and what things will be like and all the things that could happen and where I could be and where I will be. I like building little possibility-worlds. And with the excitement of moving to Amsterdam (to see afar off) and all the planning involved, it’s easy to get wrapped up in September as these sweet July days roll by. It’s easy to dream of the new places I’ll see, the new people I’ll meet, the happiness, the knowledge.
But I love Richmond. I love Virginia. (Not in another place but this place.)
I love all the brilliant people I know here (In folks nearest to you finding the sweetest, strongest, lovingest) my home, my friends, my family, my language, and I’m going to miss it so much. I want to absorb every inch of every day until I leave. (Not in another hour, but this hour.)
I know the future is so bright, but now is pretty cool, too.
Shout out to my homie Walt for reminding me of that.